The one about being THANKFUL!

I feel the need to apologize for my rant last week.

YES, I am still very annoyed about the whole situation but, this blog is my journal and I don't want to  look back later and remember bad things. So I am sorry for complaining so much.

I am trying to take a step back and just be thankful for what I do have and just not let things like that get to me so easily.

Thankful

I know its pretty cliche that it is November, THE month of giving Thanks but, my post today is about some of the things I am thankful for.

1.FAMILY~ I am sooooo lucky to have my family. My husband is amazing and loves me no matter what. He puts up with my complaining and my bad days and still loves me.  My baby boy. I can't imagine life without him anymore. My life would be incomplete without him. I just love him. And of course, the rest of my family as well. Mom&dad, Steven, Clif&Syl,Aubrey&Ben, and Kinsey. Even extended family!! I can't name everyone but a few, Grandma Lorraine, Grandma Fran,Aunt Jo and Uncle Tom.

2.MY HOME~ I am grateful for my house. I LOVE our quiet neighborhood and my big backyard for Matthew to play in.  

3.MY KINSEY~ OMG lets just say without my sister life would be.....
A WHOLE LOTCRAZIER. She helps me sooooo much and I am most grateful for everything she does. And I mean EVERYTHING. All the little things as small as changing a diaper are amazingly helpful to me.
4. Believe it or not I am thankful to have aJOB. I know so many people are without and would be grateful to do what I do. And I am grateful for Berto's job. His job is so amazing and provides for our family even though I hate his hours.

5.FRIENDS~ I am grateful for the friends I have. (You know who you are) People I have known for many many years that I know would always be there for me if I needed them.

There are so many things I am thankful for.

Oh and I am SO SO SO excited that my grandma Lorraine will be here for Thanksgiving AND Christmas this year! I can't wait to see her and for her to spend time with Matthew. He LOVES her. I can't wait for the Holidays this year. This is my favorite time of the year. I love the smells, the decorations, the family get togethers, and the spirit of it all. I can't wait to put my Christmas Tree and lights up. Its gonna be GREAT!

Just in case I don't get on here in the next 2 weeks since I am hosting Thanksgiving its gonna be busy.....

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Love,

The Serrano's

Roberto, Julie, and Matthew

The one about the Binky........

AHHHHHHHHH!

I couldn't find a woman.....

  THIS is how I have been feeling lately. My job is

making me feel this way.

The sad part its not my actual job....

its the people I work for and regarding things that

don't have anything to do with work.

For instance,

Matty has a binky. Ok, so the previous

pediatrician I worked for (a veteran of like 20 plus years)

told me that she believes its perfectly fine for kids

to have a binky until age 2. At a maximum....

Matty just barely turned 16 months.

He literally only gets his binky if he's so tired

he's whining like crazy or when he goes to bed.

Thats it... (unless he finds one , but then I take it away)

The new pediatrician I work for I am having 

issues with lately. I am so fed up with her telling me 

that Matty is too old for a binky or her most common 

comment when she sees Matthew is,

"Oh, I'm so glad you don't have a binky in your mouth."

These comments are made when Matty is just there with

me, NOT at appointments.

That's totally fine if she wants to recommend that

we get rid of the binky at appts but not every single

time I bring him in with me. Its annoying to say the least.

I plan on taking the binky away well before Matthew turns 2, but I just don't want 

to yet. I am of course going with the other pediatrician's recommendation because

I worked for her the last 3 and a half years and if she says its okay then I'm content 

with her saying that.

The new pediatrician JUST got out of her residency is July. Ya, she's

that new.... So who's advice would you take?

Here's the thing,

Is it, or is it not MY choice as his mother to decide how long he has the binky?

If I chose for him to have it until he's 4, is that not my decision as his mother??

(Not the smartest idea going that long, but its the idea that counts)

Besides, don't freaking tell me how to parent when you haven't been through any of it with 

your child yet. You don't know what its like. Just because your a doctor doesn't mean you

know everything.

And don't give me personal recommendations, ( that I don't ask for) outside of an appointment.

I don't appreciate it, it just freaking annoys the crap out of me and makes me want to find a new doctor. Which is sad because I work for one.

As my previous post says, I am stressed to say the least with my job.

Between the snotty comments about how I raise my child and the

actual work related stuff, I'm at my breaking point. 

Believe me I'd quit if I could.

Its just sad because 6 months ago I LOVED my job. 

Everything about it. Now, I hate it. 

You know its Monday.....

My baby sister Kinsey got in a car accident at

lunch today. :(

Luckily no one is really hurt. She has a sore neck and 

back but nothing major. She got T-boned making a left out of a gas

station and the other driver crunched her drivers side door.

Her poor car needs surgery. And of course it was her

fault so she got a ticket for failure to yield. 

I just feel bad for her. I took on a very mommy perspective and got all defensive and teary eyed. I felt like it was my child. Oh parenthood, whats its done to me emotionally.

(Haha, funny note. I was the first person she called. Not my parents or the cops. I feel loved.)

It's Monday and I'm full of complaints. Sorry but

I HATE mondays.

Here's to a happier rest of the week....

The One with the missing Pictures!!

Poofy Butt

 HALLOWEEN 
2010

Mickey Mouse! So stinkin cute!

Going Trick or Treating with Grandma

Mommy & Mickey

I just LOVE him :)

My favorite Pic

 NOVEMBER

2010

My new camera :)

Its pretty awesome!

The one with 2 posts within an hour???

I am done complaining and felt that I needed to move on and blog about something happy so
On to a happier note...
HALLOWEEN!


Berto and I are not big Halloween fans. I don't think since I've been with him we have ever celebrated Halloween together. Just not a fun occasion for us I guess.
We did dress up Matthew though. OMG super freaking cute!!


Matthew was MICKEY MOUSE for Halloween.
THE absolute cutest Mickey Mouse I have ever seen!  We just took Matty up and down the streets in my mom's neighborhood.  It was so funny, people were sitting outside and voting on the cutest Halloween costume they had seen so far. I kept hearing people say that for sure he was the cutest so far. Haha he was pretty dang cute :)


He filled up his entire bucket full of candy. ( Mommy likes candy so its mostly for her.)          :)


My husband is pretty dang awesome. I have been telling him that I want a nice camera for Christmas. I found the one I wanted and showed him. So he knew what to get me. Well that particular camera happen to be at an amazing price and Berto noticed so he decided to get it for me just as an I love you, don't worry gift!!! He realized that it will never be that cheap and even if it is people who are smart will snag it on Black Friday and it'll be gone forever. So that being said I am now a proud owner of a NIKON coolpix L110.

I am still trying to figure out how to work it and all its cool features but I have taken some pictures. Unfortunately freaking stupid blogger will NOT let me post any pictures. I've been trying for almost and hour and a half and I don't know what's wrong.

So next time hopefully blogger will let me...

The One about Life not being so great

UGH!!!!

That pretty much sums up what I am feeling right now. I'm so tired of the drama and the stress in my life. Mostly having to do with work. Which totally sucks because I used to just LOVE my job. I most definitely can not say that anymore.  My job for the past 6 months or so has been full of stress and drama and it carries back to my home life.

Not saying that my home life is bad, just stressful. I only work 4 hours in the morning. That's it, 4 hours. You wouldn't think that life would be so difficult. BUT, it is. In those 4 hours you would be amazed at how much crap and drama there can be. Its never ending and I am so fed up. As soon as I think things are getting better another bomb drops and I'm right back to worrying and stressing and its not fun.

TIRED

That, I guess, would be the best way to explain it. After those ridiculously horrible 4 hours all I want to do is go home and be with my family but work follows me home. Its freaking consuming my existence. I don't know what the heck I'm gonna do. I don't want to quit because I sort of need my job but I don't know how much longer I can deal with the crap!

I wish I knew how to control my feelings and just not let stuff get to me. I haven't figured it out.
Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get it out and I do feel better.