"I know it sucks"

Words straight from the mouth of my midwife.....
Yep. I have been having the worst back and side pain for like a week. Mom kept telling me to schedule an appointment and be seen and I kept saying no because they would just send me home and tell me its normal which is what they've been telling me about every complaint I have.
Well yesterday was my breaking point...
Or better yet, my mom's. She had had enough and called my doctor for me and they told her to bring me in.
They checked my urine which had white blood cells so I have some kind of infection (we have to wait for the lab) Probably a UTI or a Kidney infection.
They sent me to the lab to take my blood to check my gallbladder.
I had an ultrasound to make sure my uterus didn't rupture and that I don't have gall stones or kidney stones. (No rupture, no stones at all)
And yet I still walked out of the office not knowing what is causing all this pain.....
Go figure.
When my mom asked if there was anything else I could take other than Tylenol for the pain the midwife gave a few options. I said whatever you think is best that won't harm the baby.
She gave me percocet.
I asked when I would have the test results to maybe explain the pain and she told me to come back thursday (my original appt) and we would discuss anything they have. And then she added, "I know it sucks."
haha you have no idea.

On a happier note. Baby girl is perfectly fine. I'm just the reject with the pain that doesn't make sense. She is already in position and enjoying her warm stay (even though I'm not.) She is 5lbs and DEFINITELY still a girl according to the tech. :) good thing

I have 30 days til my due date but I doubt I make it that far.
Can't believe Christmas is 4 days away. Although I am not excited about it at all since I won't have Berto.
Matty is just as cute as he always is.
He is obsessed with all things Santa and he says it SO cute. But of course when we took him to the mall to see Santa he was scared to death of him and didn't want anything to do with him. Our Santa picture this year has mommy and Matty in it.... I wish I could photoshop myself out..... Wishful thinking. Til next time :)

Having one of "those" days...

I've been here in AZ for just over a week. I've had many meltdowns (usually just around my mom) over missing my hubby. I never thought it would be this hard to be away from him. I figured I'd be okay because I would surround myself with my family and friends....
Well I fail.
My mom has to work so I can't always be with her (even though she is who I want to be around the most) and my brother is always sleeping....
as for the rest of my family? They apparently don't even care that I am in town. Haven't seen one of them or heard from one of them since I've been here. (with the exception of kinsey seeing that she is in college and can't be here)
Same with my so called friends. The only friend who seems to care that I am here is Shawna, who by the way lives in South Carolina but is coming to visit her family here in AZ. She has been asking me when we can get together and actually wants to see me.
Seriously, DON'T call yourself a good friend if you never go out of your way to be a friend to someone. Just saying...

Today's meltdown:
Mom is working so I can't be with her.
Brother has been asleep ALL day. It's 3:35 PM people!
Missing hubby tremendously.
Back is KILLING me.

I just want my hubby.
Simple as that.

Poor Matty has been watching me cry all day and bringing me all the things that comfort him trying to make me feel better.  Blankeys, toy story toys, and cars. He keeps bringing tissues and wiping tears from my face. Seriously the sweetest thing ever but he's 2 and he shouldn't be wiping my tears.
I bet I would feel 10 times better if my back didn't hurt so badly but I have no one to make it better and I can't reach.
This month can't go by fast enough.

Merry Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Love, 

Roberto, Julie, Matthew, & Baby Girl

Sorry the picture is so small. I can't make it any bigger without it being all blurry. :(

Almost ready...

If you read my blog regularly you might remember me mentioning how unprepared I was feeling for this baby. ..
If not now you know I was feeling unprepared.
Moving on...
We FINALLY bought our car seat and stroller and the "bassinet." I am in LOVE with both.
This little girl will be rolling in style and very comfortable. :)
What a relief to have just these 2 items!

Now all we have left are warm clothes, burp cloths, bottles, and socks to buy. You know the little things.

I am SO ready but I still hope she stays in til January.
I was telling my mom how awesome it would be for her to come on my Grandma Lois's birthday. Then she could share Grandma Lois's birthday and her middle name would be shared with Grandma Lorraine.
January 11.
Its a good date....
we'll see.

We are in AZ now. We got here on Wednesday. It is the most difficult thing I have had to do to leave my hubby and take Matthew away from him for the next 4 to 6 weeks. I feel so bad. My emotions are a roller coaster. EVERYTHING makes me cry but the worst is when Matty asks for his daddy. It breaks my heart.
I know we are on the down hill stretch and I am almost done. It is really nice to spend the time with my family but I wish Berto could be here with me.
34 weeks down and only 6 to go.
Bring it on.

I should be.....

SLEEPING!!

Gosh darn it!
It's 12:30am and I am WIDE awake! What is up with my body?? Oh ya I'm pregnant.... still can I catch a break?
Just one night of uninterrupted sleep?
What interrupts me?
Oh more like what doesn't...
IF I am lucky enough to fall asleep, one or more of the following things happen to me.

• Heartburn.... Holy cow I have never known heartburn to be so brutal. I take Zantac twice a day and 750mg tablets of Tums (2). Doesn't help much, just takes the edge off.
• Indigestion... which in turn gives me heartburn if I didn't already have it.
• Charlie horse in my foot. It's the kind where if I just let it happen it would go away a lot faster but I know how bad its gonna hurt so I try to continually flex my foot in hopes it'll go away like that.
• My neck gets stiff from only being able to sleep on the right side of my body. (Heartburn on back and indigestion on left) Which in turn gives me heartburn.
• My lovely child. He unfortunately has night terrors and just plain stirs in the night and I hear him over the monitor so it wakes me up. (This doesn't bother me as much as the rest.)
• Worry. I'll have a weird dream or a dream about how unprepared for this baby we are and then I can't get back to sleep which in turn triggers heartburn. Another reason I worry, leaving Berto for a whole month and a half. I wish I could take him with me. I know this is the best decision but I still wish he could be there with me. My biggest fear is that he'll miss the birth. That's just not a moment you can take back or re-live. I can't think about it too much or I get really sad. I know its for the best that I go back to AZ.

Tonight my problems are:
1. HEARTBURN
2. Indigesiton
3. Headache
4. Charlie horse in my left foot
5. Sore neck
So lets see, I hit 4 of 6 from the list above.
Seriously, its sad. I sound like a reject from a Pepto Bismol commercial.

We are in week 33 and couldn't be more excited to be done.
Mom flies in on Tuesday and we drive back to AZ on Wednesday. So, 3 days.

Call me crazy, I don't care.
Now I look forward to a fun Christmas with Matthew since Berto will be here in CA and then January 1.
Why January1?
Because once that date hits I'm gonna do everything I can to have this baby! I just need to make it to the 1st because Berto will have vacation time to take! Hopefully there is enough room and I don't pop before then. ;)