Waiting

I'm sitting here at home, alone. Well Matty is asleep so I'm not entirely alone but might as well be.
Going through pictures of my Matty when he was born. I sit here and the more pictures I look at the more excited I am getting to hold my new baby. January can NOT come fast enough. I hate the waiting game. Ask anyone who knows me at all. I have zero patience. Being pregnant is a real task for me.  Why does pregnancy have to be so hard? Can't I just fast forward, skip that part, and have my baby now? Please?
Wishful thinking right?

Anyway, Matty will be two in 11 days. TWO!! I can't get over it. He definitely acts like a two year old but I just can't believe how fast it's gone by. I must be doing something right though because every person who is around him for more than 10 minutes always compliments on how well behaved he is. Without fail. I love it because it is reassurance that my parenting is good. I am proud :)

I also can't believe I'm going to have two children. For whatever reason growing up I never saw myself with children. Always wanted them but just could never picture it. I was terrified when I found out I was pregnant with Matthew. What if I am a terrible parent? You know the usual self doubt. So now I will have two. It will be an adventure that's for sure.
I can't wait to find out if Matty will have a little brother or sister. :) A couple more months.

Sweet baby Matthew :)

Father's Day 2011

Happy Father's Day to my love!!!

Matthew is pretty dang lucky to have Berto as his daddy :)

Same as I am lucky to have him as my hubby.

He is the most amazing man.

He is always there for me when I need him and tries is absolute

best to always make me feel better.

Especially right now... since I'm sick and exhausted all the time.

Even though I stay home and he works all day he still

comes home and helps me with everything.

He tries to satisfy all my silly cravings and makes sure

I'm okay when I spend a portion of my day with my other

friend, the toilet.

I love him so much and am so grateful for him.

Happy Father's Day Love!!!

Big Baby

Seriously, I just have to say men are the BIGGEST babies.
I have morning ALL day sickness. I wake up sick and I go to bed
sick.
My husband gets a 24 hour "flu" bug and he is acting like he is
on his death bed. Everything is such a task.
"Look Julie I'm shaking and I threw up twice."
BAH, twice. That's it????

Sorry just needed to vent that my husband is a big baby and
I just wish he could walk a day in my shoes and know what it feels
like.
The end.

Hello Morning Sickness... We meet AGAIN!

That's right! Baby # 2 is on its way and in full force!

We are truly so excited about being blessed with another baby.

 Funny story.....

I took this pregnancy test on Friday the 13th. Not intentionally. So when I read "pregnant" I was a little shocked. Both Berto and I had already had the "I think I'm/you're pregnant talk"  and I kind of knew but I was still shocked. So, I couldn't help but think that it was wrong even though I have morning sickness and I'm exhausted. I told Berto that I was nervous on the way to the doc this morning because I was afraid they were going to tell me that I'm crazy and there is no baby. Thankfully there is!

Unfortunately, I am one of those women who truly loath being pregnant.

I love the attention and getting to see the baby but in all honesty its not

that fun. Especially for me. I dislike so many things.

1. Having to pee every 2 minutes even though I haven't had that much to drink.

2. Violently vomiting everything I just had a craving for 5 minutes before (TMI? sorry)

3. Losing all dignity and having body parts out there for the world to see (not really, its just the doc but still)

4. Being poked all the time and having to pee in a cup all the time

5. Having zero energy (this is difficult with a 2 year old)

Despite all those things (and so much more) I am excited to have another one. I hope that this time around things are easier. With Matthew, my pregnancy was rough. If you knew me at all you know what I'm talking about. I guess we will see.

I am also really excited because when I had Matthew my OB was called in to do an emergency C-section so my doctor didn't deliver him. A midwife on call delivered Matty. She wasn't even part of the practice I was going to. BUT, she was amazing! So sweet and really left an impression on me. Unfortunately, I was kind of dopey when she told me her name I didn't remember it. So for about 6 months I looked all over to find her because I wanted to put her name in Matthew's baby book as well as have her down as an option when and if we had another baby. Well  after countless hours of searching and a chance run in with someone who went to a midwivery practice I found her! I had to show her picture to both my mom and my husband to confirm  that I had the right person but I did. ( All I could remember was half her face since from her nose down she was covered by a mask)

So I made an appointment and saw her today. LOVE her. She is so sweet and she answers all my questions and actually made me feel comfortable. She asked me if everything she was doing was ok and that EVERYTHING was my choice. I am so happy I found her!!!

So, baby # 2 is DUE January 20, 2012. (My half birthday)  :)

My children will be 2 and a half years apart almost to the date. Perfect. I am happy about that.

Here's our little itty bitty bundle of joy :)

Its a little hard to see because its so little!!!

23

My little man is 23 months old today....

This means in LESS than 30 days I will have an official
2 year old!! (Not that he hasn't hit the terrible twos already)

Where has the time gone??
He's not so little anymore.
Can I cry now?